Tomorrow is a new day...

Dear Jackie,

Well I've been quite frustrated with myself. It's not an excuse, but I had a terrible week emotionally last week, and my eating slipped significantly. Official weigh in says that I did not lose or gain again, but I was constantly eating junk food and forgetting my supplements. So! How am I going to fix this? I'm ashamed to admit that I don't have the same motivation that I started with and that I have become discouraged enough to want to give up. The only time I trust that I will do workouts is to swim before work, but my sleep suffers. And my eating suffers when I become emotional.

Obviously I need a plan to change at 6 weeks in. I'll try to be more aware of how late the evening is getting so that I can get better amounts of sleep. But more than that, I do need to stick to eating only what I plan on eating for the day and not giving in to temptation.

*(OMG! Side note: the lady in the cubicle next to me at work is someone that I've formed a friendship with and we get along well. But this morning I could have wrung her neck!!! She comes into my office with a bag of Hershey kisses and dumps them into my dish on my back file cabinet, knowing FULL WELL that I'm trying so hard to lose weight! How supportive, right?? GGRRRRRRR!!!!)*

I've pulled your book back out and started looking through the menu suggestions and recipes, and have found some recipes for HEALTHY cookies online that I will have to try. Many of the recipes are free of flour or use whole wheat flour, sugar free or reduced sugar, and use flaxseed meal as well. I'll be sharing these recipes as I try them, and only the good ones. I know that these foods are not in your "clean eating," but I feel like I'm going to have to break the bad eating habit slowly, and if I have healthy options for a cookies or muffin, it will be a lot easier.