Dear Jackie,
Well I've postponed this post by one day, but I suppose I shouldn't push it back any further. I had my official weigh in for last week and I gained one pound. And I've heard it all: one pound is nothing, you're going to have weeks that don't go well, weight is always fluctuating... True as they may be, I know that this one is my fault. I didn't lose for 2 weeks, and then I gained, and it's all due to my eating. When it took me 5 weeks to lose 10 pounds, I got discouraged. It's not coming off fast enough! I don't want to deprive myself of the sweets! Truth be told though, going back to old habits so quickly frustrates me even more.
Time to fix it. I did decent yesterday, ate my "clean" meals, and had very minimal slip ups through the day. I made it until almost 4:00 before rummaging in my car for some stale popcorn and ate a few handfuls driving home from work. Now, I have to tell you here though, that I did not eat popcorn because I was hungry. It was pure necessity to keep me awake! I almost fell asleep and hit 2 mailboxes before resorting to the snacking out of turn. I also ended up having 3 fingerlicks of frosting, 3 potato chips, and 2 bite size brownies before heading to bed. BLURGH...
Today? So far pretty good! My only slip up, 3 hershey kisses. BUT! I resisted the temptation for the chocolate chip bagel and the peanut butter frosted chewy fudge brownie. 2 things I hate to have to pass up! But I did it. And I feel that small victory! I also spent some time reading about the contestants in a new competition on http://winloseorblog.blogspot.com. Perhaps they'll all encourage me some!
Tomorrow? Only time will tell. I'll get there again... hopefully before I gain any more weight back! I have to share a few quotes with you though that I will be displaying at my desk and in my kitchen:
"There's no such thing as a bad day - only bad moments in a good day."
"Nothing is impossible; the word itself says, 'I'm possible!'"
"Every day is a new day unless we drag in the past."
"The only one who can limit your possibilities is you."
"A bad attitude is like a flat tire. If you don't change it, you'll never go anywhere."
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"My name is Jenni, and I'm overweight"
When I stepped on the scale and saw that I had worked (well, eaten really) my way up to 230 pounds I wanted to cry. In fact, I did a little. I am only 5’4” short, so 230 pounds is not just a little overweight, or a couple extra pounds. It’s not even “just a couple extra pounds” for someone 6 foot tall! Even worse, I was active growing up, swimming competitively from the age of 7 or 8 and continuing all through high school. I graduated high school at 150 to 155 pounds. So how did I gain so much?! I started counting calories and got back in the pool (at 5:30 in the morning before work, mind you…) and I did manage to drop 7 pounds in 3 weeks. Not too bad! But there has to be more… I hit rock bottom when I was trying on shorts at Wal-Mart due to the recent 85 degree weather. When I couldn’t even pull up the size 18W, I sat down in the dressing room and cried. And eventually ended up at Barnes and Noble where I cruised through the exercise/nutrition sections. Even that depressed me seeing all of the very strict diet plans, eating only certain foods. I’m a picky eater! Then I found it. The perfect book. It sat on its shelf, shimmering and glowing with a halo around it, singing my name and turning the bookstore into movie world slow motion. (Ok, you’re right, it didn’t. It sat on the table of new releases and I only saw it because it was on my way to the cash register with my fantasy novels I use to escape reality.) The book? This is Why You’re Fat (And How to Get Thin Forever) by Jackie Warner. Hello major lifestyle change! I read the first 4 chapters in one sitting, and I was so excited to see how well the book read, the educational and research material presented making me really think about what I put into my body for the first time! My first day following Jackie’s plan was May 27, 2010. My goal is to be down to 170 pounds by Christmas. At that point I’ll re-evaluate and make a new goal. This is not the first time I’ve tried to “get healthy” or lose weight. The results were always that of most dieters: short-term success and gaining all the lost weight back… and then some... I figured if I blogged about my new life I would find new support, be able to support others, and be more committed to the changes I’ve started. I wouldn’t want to embarrass myself by giving you an update in 6 months and saying, “I gained 10 more pounds, but it’s going well…” Oh! And the background? Black. Because we all know black is slimming… Welcome to my journey with Jackie Warner. At times it will be exciting, painful, frustrating, rewarding, and educational. I’ll even post pictures for tracking my progress. Let’s see where it takes me…
Jenni,
ReplyDeleteI admire your honesty, I do however have something to ask you, why do you have all those kinds of foods within your reach???
I started last Thursday on the calorie counter blog and I have lost 3 lbs, but I am not snacking on the sugar things I love, like cookies, pudding is my favorite, and ice cream, the evening is the worst time for all that eating to me anyway, get that frosting out of the house, ditch the choc chip bagel and my goodness toss the peanut butter covered brownie, have some healthy, alternatives, (I like animal crackers or graham crackers) I do not deprive myself of an ounce of dark chocolate every few days, its great and helps the mood. Keep busy exercise more and you CAN do this, you have motivated me so come on here lets do it together...